Change
While the “change” came to America , a different kind of “change” creeped into my life. A “change” which was just the natural conclusion of the consummation of life. A “change” where i was loosing company of like minded people,slowly and silently being pushed into a minority by the desertion of the “faithfuls”. These people at various stages of my life have been my companion , my mentor .From childhood , through adolescence into adulthood and now one by one they are leaving me all alone by getting married.
The year before last had isolated cases with a couple of good friends leaving the ranks of bachelorhood voluntarily or under paternal pressure to go the “family way“.But last year was unusually bad. Just like the recession and housing market debacle wiped away the equity of the major banks , similar tremors were felt across my social circle. It was eroded.
I lost a “room mate” who shared my rent. I lost a school friend (senior in college ) and haven’t heard from him since he got married. I lost a childhood school friend and then a maverick cousin and am on the verge of losing someone real close.
Not that am not happy for all these married or would be married souls,it just that when I see people with whom i went to school or to college, with whom i played cricket all day long,with whom i exchanged comics, with whom i spent nite outs “high” on music and booze, deliberating the intriguing questions of life . People whom i would call at any point of time to tell them about my freaking frustrations,insecurities,concerns are all calling it quits.
All this takes me to a pertinent point where am forced to introspect.Is it time for me as well to cave in to the inevitable threat posed by reality or can i buy in more time to continue to live in a delusion ?
PS: Congrats to Gautam,Dharam and Dixit (IIIT Hyderabad),Sachin Seghal and kunal tiwari (Inductis), Sachin singhal and GR (you know who u are
).
March 30, 2009 at 4:57 pm
Plz update ur post!!