Fire in the belly

Me: “It’s time. Let him go.”
Me: “He is detrimental to your existence, to everything you cherish, to everything you aspire, to everything you hope for and to you future.”

And he stood there mockingly and unfazed , looking at me and looking like me.

Him: “You sure about letting me go? Am happy to go, infact ready to go , but only if you are Ready ?”

I cringed as I stood there obfuscated, “How did he know about that, how is he speaking my mind ? Was that my voice reverberating? “

Him: “So you are still living in denial, you cannot live without me ” as his voice echoed yet again.”You have lived,grown and fed on me. Everything wrong that has ever happened to you was attributed to me. I had been the scapegoat for all your failures,for all your setbacks and now you want to disown me and you want to live without me. I have been the reason that you are living . I give you hope,I give you reason to try , try again and if you fail , I provide you an excuse in my “form”. I give you your EGO.I let you to use me , like I have let you to do for the umpteenth times. I am your “Mediocrity” , you let me go and watch yourself disintegrate.I am a necessary evil for your existence ,lighting a “fire in you belly” to get rid of me.

The palpitations grew .Sweat gleamed on my forehead and it dawned “WE are in this together,in sickness and in health till death do us apart”.